I’m pretty sure I’m looking for something but I’m not quite sure what it is. Maybe it’s the main reason why I’ve been looking for things to do (including new jobs) just to keep myself busy.
I actually found a new job. I’m not sure how much of my time it will take but if it keeps me from thinking crazy thoughts then that’s good enough for me.
The only problem with this whole keeping myself busy thing is that I’m not actually motivated enough to do anything. Like right now, I have a bunch of things that I need to read but I decided to watch Grey’s Anatomy, Love Actually, and Wild Things just to ignore all my responsibilities. I keep putting things off and I’m pretty sure I’ll regret it but I still can’t push myself to do anything with my life.
What is wrong with me?