I just spent the last couple of hours reading old posts and old notes, some from seven years ago. Now it’s almost 5AM, I can’t sleep, and I’m crying about some of the decisions I made that I can no longer change. Wondering about all of the what ifs that could’ve happened if I chose one thing over the other.
I wish I didn’t make life as complicated as I did, both for myself and for the other people that were affected by my choices. I wish I followed my heart more. Maybe I’d actually be with the person I think I still want to be with now.
But I guess life is more complicated now. We’re getting older and time isn’t really going to slow down for anyone. Do we still have time to make bad decisions?